Man, I miss Shyanne a lot today. Like a lot a lot. Had her "deleted" from the membership at the YMCA. Made me really sad. She had her own little membership card with her picture on it, too. Gosh, I really really miss her right now.

It's gonna be all right.

Nothing much...

They just got done with this...should be set at the grave site soon. Happy to see that it turned out really nice but was really sad to see it. Cried almost immediately.

Fullness of Joy

A customer of mine today said that she honestly believed that I was lying to her about our situation. She couldn't believe that, in her own words, someone could have that much turmoil in their life.

I was humbled and was completely filled with joy this evening when, FINALLY, Dr. Judy called and said that she did not see anything to be concerned about on both the CT and MIBG scans.

I had been, if you really can, preparing for the worst bad news. These last weeks of Jovee's leg, knees, foot, etc...hurting her to where she would get up and cry at night time because of the pain have been making me really ill. I couldn't help but to think that we'd get the news of relapse. But no...everything looked good on the scans. The mass that keeps showing up in her scans has actually shrunk a bit. Yeah!!!!!! We really, really, really, really needed good news. We got it. Now we have some breathing room. I did try to put Shyanne aside because of Jovee's scans. We're clear for a while now. So much weight lifted off my shoulders. You really don't know how relieved that Jovee's tests came back clear. I'm drained and really tired and need to go to bed...Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night. Yes, it was an awesome present today .

No news yet

Had to get 5 pokes yesterday. Her veins look good but is deceiving. She did really good, considering it took 5 needles to get the IV in.

Yesterday was the CT, today was the MIBG.

Called to try to get results but no news. The assistant to the oncologist said she the oncologist has not reviewed the tests yet and couldn't release information.

So I wait in big time anticipation until morning time.

Send some good vibes upstairs

Yeah, we need some good faith, prayer, petition, begging, whatever you want to call it for good results tomorrow and Wednesday.

Jovee has her labs tomorrow morning, have to check in at 9:20 am. Hope that the nurse can find her vein on the first try and get the blood they need. MIBG injection at noon and then CT scans at 1:00 pm.

Another long day at the resort.

COME ON!!! Good results, good results, good results!

Happy Flowers

This is her temporary head stone. I'm excited, I guess, to see her real one, the finsihed product. Should be ready and ready to be set here next month.

Jean bought these for Shyanne Sunday before she went back to Denver. They're really happy, bright flowers. Makes me happy.

Have gone by the site the last 3 mornings. Just talking to her. Telling her that I love her and miss her, that I wish I could have raised her. She was such a good, good baby.

Been missing her a lot. I'm not absolutely 100% depressed 24 hours a day. Been keeping busy with work and all so those moments my mind is off of her. But when I'm not busy, that's when I think about Shyanne. Shiny Shyanne....